January 15th, 1893 — Neighborhood in London
She recognized him right away, though she did consider that maybe that was due to the Ministry robes. If he had been dressed in street clothing, maybe she wouldn't have pieced it together right away. Maybe she would have looked at him a second longer, struck by the feeling that he was familiar but drawing a blank as to exactly when or where she might have seen him. Maybe her breath would not have caught in her throat and her heart would not have started pounding.
But she doubted it. She hadn't known so many people, when it came right down to it. She had spent so many years Inside, avoiding the world so that the world would not feel the need to avoid her. Her mental catalogue of familiar faces was more slender than most women her age. And his face was one of the important ones — one of the dangerous ones. She thought she probably would have recognized Mr. Xavier Stanwell anywhere.
He had not recognized her, of course — she did not even know if he had seen her. Even if he had, there was nothing to recognize, because she had sipped her polyjuice before she'd left the dingy flat, and she looked entirely unlike herself. Just a pregnant widow going about her shopping. People didn't like to notice her, she had found. She was used to this — Before, people had either stared or looked away too quickly, too conscious of being caught staring. It was like that now, too, but for different reasons. People didn't like to think about pregnant widows, she hypothesized. It made them uncomfortable to stand side by side with tragedy, so they preferred not to notice her. This suited her fine. It was a shame that she wouldn't look pregnant much longer, really.
Whether he had seen her or not, she considered turning around and going back home — but this would probably draw attention, moreso than continuing on with the shopping she'd been planning to do. She could have excused it, claimed she'd forgotten something at home, but it was better not to do anything that might attract suspicion. Let her go unnoticed. People didn't like to notice her, anyway. Maybe Mr. Stanwell was one of those. She could hope. Even if there was nothing that might give her away about her appearance currently, she didn't like the idea of talking to him.
Magnolia Addams forced herself to look away from the man in the Ministry robes, towards the other end of the street, and stepped off the curb towards the nearest vendor of root vegetables. She had her black hat drawn tight around her face and a basket on her arm — perfectly normal. Perfectly unnoticeable. Her heart was still pounding, her breath had still caught, but there was nothing to notice. She had to keep saying that as she walked across the street: there is nothing to notice. He will not notice you. There is nothing to notice.
But she doubted it. She hadn't known so many people, when it came right down to it. She had spent so many years Inside, avoiding the world so that the world would not feel the need to avoid her. Her mental catalogue of familiar faces was more slender than most women her age. And his face was one of the important ones — one of the dangerous ones. She thought she probably would have recognized Mr. Xavier Stanwell anywhere.
He had not recognized her, of course — she did not even know if he had seen her. Even if he had, there was nothing to recognize, because she had sipped her polyjuice before she'd left the dingy flat, and she looked entirely unlike herself. Just a pregnant widow going about her shopping. People didn't like to notice her, she had found. She was used to this — Before, people had either stared or looked away too quickly, too conscious of being caught staring. It was like that now, too, but for different reasons. People didn't like to think about pregnant widows, she hypothesized. It made them uncomfortable to stand side by side with tragedy, so they preferred not to notice her. This suited her fine. It was a shame that she wouldn't look pregnant much longer, really.
Whether he had seen her or not, she considered turning around and going back home — but this would probably draw attention, moreso than continuing on with the shopping she'd been planning to do. She could have excused it, claimed she'd forgotten something at home, but it was better not to do anything that might attract suspicion. Let her go unnoticed. People didn't like to notice her, anyway. Maybe Mr. Stanwell was one of those. She could hope. Even if there was nothing that might give her away about her appearance currently, she didn't like the idea of talking to him.
Magnolia Addams forced herself to look away from the man in the Ministry robes, towards the other end of the street, and stepped off the curb towards the nearest vendor of root vegetables. She had her black hat drawn tight around her face and a basket on her arm — perfectly normal. Perfectly unnoticeable. Her heart was still pounding, her breath had still caught, but there was nothing to notice. She had to keep saying that as she walked across the street: there is nothing to notice. He will not notice you. There is nothing to notice.
pinned my hopes to the summit of someday
Magnolia