I will spare myself the indignity of your inevitable silence. I wish to reconcile with you, whatever we decide that means. Please do not mistake this for meekness. When I feel wronged, I will tell you the truth. That has never changed and never will. As desperately as I want your affection and long for your love, I want them honestly.

I repeat the most important part of my message: I have never willfully misunderstood you. Whatever I have misunderstood, please help me understand. This is not a game to me, Emrys. I have no illusions about our voes, but to me, they had meaning. I have not, nor will I ever give up on us. I will do what I promised to do, which is to love you. Help me learn what that means.

Angelica

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